quick thoughts on work

it’s sad, but I’m only halfway through my second week and I’ve fallen ill. it’s like my body is adjusting to all the work shit all over again since I had such a long hiatus.

01 casual dress code is the best thing ever. seriously. but it also makes me want to go shopping for more shit to wear to work.

02 still goddamn awkward around people despite getting over the whole ‘shy/introverted’ thing. I mean, fake it till you make it, sure, but if you’re not very comfortable with people in general, it shows up, no matter how much I laugh along with their in-jokes and pretend to be outgoing.

03 music is a lifesaver. okay, like this is applicable in all scenarios, but basically music is the main thing that is keeping me awake at work when all I want to be is a zombie. like, I was so relieved to see people using earphones on the third day that I threw all caution to the winds and hit up my Spotify playlists.

04 heeeelllo, procrastination, my old friend, I’ve come to talk with you again. yes, a terrible bad habit but so far, I’ve managed to complete my tasks as quickly as possible (though not without pesky minor errors that could have been caught with some checking) so that I can you know, surf the net, check out reddit, read fic…

05 the cynic in me lives on – I still can’t stand all those inspirational motivational shit that leaders like to sprout. yeah, tell me what to do, give me deadlines and give me the money, but don’t try and inspire me with your words because I’m like the running creek, everything gonna flow right by and I’m too jaded for your ra-ra feel good maxims. it’s all just marketing lingo and neuro-linguistic programming to me.

caffeine in an iv drip | a mixtape about coffee

because sleep deprivation is a thing that never ends. Even when I wasn’t working, I was still not getting enough sleep, and now that I am back to joining all the mindless zombies and their daily grind, the sleep deprivation is much worse.

01. J. S. Bach – Coffee Cantata, BWV 211, iv Aria: Ei! Wie schmeckt der Kaffee süße

02. Garbage – Cup of Coffee
(it took a cup of coffee to prove that you don’t love me)

03. Blur – Coffee and TV
(so give me coffee and TV)

04. Black Flag – Black Coffee
(anger and coffee, feeding me)

05. Bob Dylan – One More Cup of Coffee
(one more cup of coffee ‘fore I go / to the valley below)

06. Ella Mae Morse – Forty Cups of Coffee
(I’m drinking forty cups of coffee, forty cups of coffee)

07. The Ramones – I Wanna be Sedated
(hurry hurry hurry before I go insane)

here’s my ten cents, my two cents is free

Guess who’s back, back again? *sheepish wave*

It has been a while since I retreated to this corner of the internet, hasn’t it, like around half a year? Idk, I suppose I didn’t really feel like posting despite having things to talk about. But hey, I thought it was high time to come back before I stop being able to put thoughts and feelings into actual sentences, because we all know that the thoughts that flow through one’s mind move really quickly and are normally only half-formed. (Or at least that’s my experience? I tend to think in half-sentences because my mind knows what I’m trying to say without having to craft everything into proper thoughts as though I’m trying to explain something to another person outside of my mind.)

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