どれだけ 経つだろう、星が 流れてから…

I think some part of me is broken or just masochistic.

Considering how frequent I curse and complain on Twitter about how much my work sucks, guess who is insane enough to agree to extending ONE ENTIRE YEAR OF MY LIFE to this hellhole? This crazy person here, typing away, that is.

Seriously, I’m getting burned out and feeling frustrated and stressed by the huge steaming piles of dog shit disguised as work. Especially after my long break away from work – do you know how I almost wanted to flip all the tables in my vicinity when I stepped into work on Tuesday morning and I saw the amount of work waiting for me after my extended weekend?

It’s not that my co-worker didn’t do shit when I was around, au contraire, I don’t know how I’d survive if he wasn’t around actually, but it’s just so goddamn frustrating when people submit their things late and then start chasing you for status updates and asking you to expedite their requests or just being generally unhelpful. It’s not my fault you waited till the last possible minute to hand in your submission because you had three months. It’s like December holidays and homework, and the naughty kids who think that their teacher will be lenient enough to forget about the homework. Fuck no, ain’t no soft hearted teachers here, just a very short-tempered bitch hiding her frustration behind passive-aggressive niceties.


deep silence between the notes

I think at this point in time, the only thing that needs to be said is simply a ‘thank you’.

It doesn’t matter what your opinions are on him, whether or not you agree with his ideas and his policies, it doesn’t matter what kind of person he was in his private/public persona. This is not the time to try and demean his years of effort or debate the merits of his actions.

This is a time to remember and appreciate what someone has done to build a country from scratch, and recognizing that sometimes hard and unpopular decisions have to be made. You can’t build a legacy without making foes or making pragmatic choices that may alienate other people.

thank you.

now that your rose is in bloom

Marriage is love. It’s commitment. It’s joy. It’s understanding, it’s patience. It’s anger, it’s reconciliation. It’s everything. It’s like oatmeal… it sustains you.

I have no idea if my new sister-in-law wore any fragrance (she probably did) during her wedding, because I didn’t go that close or sit near her the entire day. And as an attendee and also a helper at the festivities, I wore Serge Lutens’ La Fille de Berlin, because it feels like a good scent – good sillage but not overpowering, decent longevity, rose based but not generic.

But you know what, if anyone gets hitched, or in a parallel universe where I deign to get married, my recommendation for a wedding fragrance would be the latest creation from Maison Francis Kurkdjian, A La Rose.

When done wrongly, a rose based perfume can be overly floral and powdery, reminiscent of an elderly lady, but when done right, it can be a gorgeous youthful bloom.

Kurkdjian on his perfume: A la Rose is an ode to femininity, a declaration of love captured in a fragrance. Two hundred and fifty precious roses from Grasse offer their radiance and their unmatched richness in every flacon

Notes: Damascena Rose from Bulgaria, Bergamot from Calabria, Orange from California, Violet, Magnolia Blossom, Cedar Wood, Musk and Centifolia Rose from Grasse

I only managed to test this one out in the store and I fell in love with it almost immediately. Delicate and floral, this is sweet in a youthful dewy manner, not the artificial candied sweetness. In the opening, a short burst of citrus creates a clean and fresh atmosphere, until the roses start drifting in, creating a lovely peachy-pink haze of light.

I’d love to buy a full size of this one and idk, wear it to bed, but it’s way out of my price range currently, and I’ll probably have to make do with a decant of it for now. So, ye perfume deities, please don’t ever let this one discontinue, okay, I’ll beg if I have to.

Things I Love Thursday

A relatively longer list than last week~

It was pretty nice to take a break from listening to bands like Dragonforce and Nightwish, with their heavier songs and just chill out with Rufus Wainwright. He had quite the sense of humour, and idk, I just really liked his style of singing, like he’s drawling all his words out, and not enunciating his words properly. He showed us a little of his newest (?) work, Lucy’s Blue, in which he messed up a couple of times on the piano parts but managed to smooth it over with self-deprecating humour. Personally, I find that a little… meh, like, why would you present something you’re not confident of playing perfectly, but on the other hand, I’m glad he shared it, because it’s really a lovely song.

 To use up the department funds before the merger, and as a sort of ‘farewell/final team bonding session’ with the department. we had a department outing, where we had lunch at Buffet Town and games at Xcape. The food was alright, I guess, but I found the game at Xcape more interesting. We didn’t managed to escape within the given time… but I enjoyed myself quite a fair bit, even when I got frustrated at people who don’t take instructions well. I definitely wouldn’t mind going back and trying to solve the puzzles myself.

Also, it’s a little sad to know that I won’t be seeing the other two teams anymore… idk, they seem like pretty fun people. The people on the other side of the merger though…

I was supposed to be clothes shopping but I got sidetracked at Sephora, and I ended up buying stuff.
 High Beam is awesome, I think the blush might be useful, but Benetint doesn’t work at all for me, as it’s too sheer and doesn’t really show up, and I’m not a fan of lip gloss. But still, damn, I foresee myself using High Beam a lot.

Along with spending money on things I don’t really need, I also got a hair cut and the hair stylist was friendly! In the sense that she actually talked to me! Which is like super rare, normally my hair cuts take place in complete silence, (not complete silence entirely because there’s always music and other sounds in a hair salon), but yeah, hair stylists never talk to me.

 Cry has finally finished his Call of Cthulhu playthrough! :D Which means he’s one step closer to getting back to playing Deadly Premonition~ (I am optimistic that he will continue the game.)

 #sixseasonsandamovie Yeah, Community is back with the sixth season~ and okay, I’m not really blown away by the first episode (I haven’t got around to the second episode yet) and idk, it’s a little weird that Yahoo is now airing it… because it’s Yahoo, but eh, one more show to catch isn’t really a hardship.

But the best thing? I have a long weekend coming up! Because I’m clearing leave, but yeah, Friday to Monday, bitches.

fear not a twisted future

Is it still called gossiping behind someone’s back when we are exchanging true stories about the person? I mean, isn’t it just sharing information or consolidating our knowledge so we can get a better picture of that individual, and if it all happens to be negative information, isn’t that just the individual’s fault for displaying all his bad traits? But yeah, bitching about someone can be a way of bonding with other people who feel the same way, though it is kind of sad that someone is so universally disliked among his peers.

It’s also kind of gratifying to know that my big boss apparently was quite impressed with me during my interview, and I was one of the first candidates to be selected. I mean, I don’t know what it was that I said that impressed him, maybe he liked that I learned how to tinker with HTML and CSS for fun… (but that’s because I used to blog on Blogspot and everyone then tweaked their own templates to add weird shit)

Aaaand as for extension of my contract, I have no fucking clue how to wind will blow now, so yeah, that sucks.

a light from the shadows shall spring

‘Not all those who wander are lost’ – sadly, I don’t feel like my wandering is leading anywhere, and it feels like time is slipping away. When you’re young, you feel invincible and time is beneath your attention. Days can go by without making a single blimp on your radar, but I don’t know when exactly I started to be afraid of running out of time. It’s not the notion of death I fear, not really. Death is merely the breakdown of one’s physical body and it’s a thing we go through daily. Our cells are constantly dying (and regrowing, until they’re not, so… *shrug*). It’s the fact that one day we’ll be gone and no one would have remembered our existence. It doesn’t matter how important you become in your lifetime, but eventually you will be forgotten. Not now, not decades or centuries later, but eventually you’ll stop appearing in history books and people won’t even have known of your existence. But at least you got there. What happens to the rest of us?

I don’t know where my path is leading, and it feels like all I’m doing is taking one day at the time, and it feels like I’m wasting time at this job, with my daily routine and my way of doing things. But at the same time, it’s not like I’m on the lookout for wild adventures or something crazy. I’m not exactly the type of person to do something crazy, honestly. Even when I’m being ‘spontaneous’ and ‘random’, it’s usually after some thinking. Yeah, I do some thinking, okay, even when I’m being all impulsive. I plan, though it’s haphazard and ill-conceived, but kudos for trying, right?

Pi Day

It’s Pi Day~ you know, 3.1415? :D So here’s a pie related scent from my indie collection: Alchimia Apothecary’s A la Gory

The perfect scent of pie a la mode. This fragrance is filled with the sweet smells of vanilla ice cream, whipped cream and honey, pistachio pudding cake, spicy notes of pumpkin pie and the rich, buttery and flaky hints of pie crust. Surprisingly, you can even smell the cherry on top. This is a mouth watering treat for your nose!

Upon first application, it’s just cherry, cherry, and more cherry. And it’s not the dark cherries that you’d buy from the supermarket. It’s the glazed bright red artificial sort of cherry, tooth-rottening sweet. After a while, I start detecting pumpkin pie and creamy vanilla ice cream. The dry down is a relief after the strong scent of cherries, and it’s a pretty decent gourmand perfume. Not really my favourite, and it’s not overpowering in sillage or longevity, but it is unique enough, I guess? (Seriously, I need to shop my stash more instead of grabbing whichever mainstream perfume that is closest when I’m running late for work…)

Things I Love Thursday

Hello super short post, so short there’s only 4 items on this agenda.

01. B1 is leaving work earlier and we threw a farewell lunch with him. It’s probably kind of mean to actually celebrate the fact that he’s leaving (instead of wishing him well in future endeavours), but he has been grating on my nerves since forever. He’s basically the co-worker from hell, and yes, I’m a terrible prick because I act all okay and ‘friendly-ish’ towards his face but behind his back I’m gnashing my teeth and wanting never to speak to him in any situation.

02. After spending a lot of time on Persona Q and Persona 4, I have moved on to two more Ace Attorney series.

First up, the second installment in the Ace Attorney series, Phoenix Wright: Justice For All. The cases are progressively getting harder, especially with the introduction of Psyche-locks and health-bars outside of the courtroom. It’s still ridiculously fun, what with the snarky asides and all the facepalming that Phoenix seems to do in his trials.

And while I’m not done with the second series (I’m at the last case, actually), I’ve also embarked on the fourth game in the series, Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney, which features a completely different main character. Named Apollo Justice, if you’re not paying attention. While Phoenix Wright’s name is meaningful enough – Phoenix = rising from the ashes and renewal and Wright = pun on ‘right’, Apollo’s name goes even further with the meanings. Apollo = sun god who was also known for being the god of justice, and justice = duh, it speaks for itself.

Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney also introduces a whole host of characters and recurring ones, including extremely snarky and badass Phoenix (which we don’t exactly get to see when we’re playing him), as well as Klavier Gavin, Apollo’s extremely flirty and suave rival :D


I am what, more than half a year late to the party? Yeah, but this may be my favourite Dragonforce album, hands down. This is what I’ve been playing on repeat at work, and it just gets my blood pumping and adrenaline running. Favourite tracks include: Symphony of the Night and Three Hammers. Yeah, the lyrics can be kind of corny at times, but I love the music, they’re catchy and very my-kind-of-thing.


I’m not fond of lip balms most of the time, because I usually end up licking them off and they always taste weird. But I see the importance of lip balms, especially when my lips get super dry at the office and bleeding lips are gross. So yeah, lip balms are awesomesauce and I really need to remember to use them more often.

while the night still hides

“I thought my life’d finally have meaning if I was ‘special’ to someone. But I really didn’t need it… It’s not what you have, or what you can do. Just being born, living your life… before you know it, you’re already special to someone.”
— Yosuke Hanamura, Persona 4

No, it doesn’t work like that, not really.

Lolita Lempicka; Lolita Lempicka Le Premier Parfum

The eponymous perfume comes housed in a apple shaped glass bottle, and compared to the other sleeker/classier looking bottles in my collection, Lolita Lempicka is whimsically cutesy, just like the fragrance itself. Created by Annick Menardo in 1997, this is not a new fragrance, but strangely I find myself reaching for this quite a lot these days. I’m about 1/4 into the bottle, which doesn’t seem like a lot, but compared to the rest of my collection, it is.

A strong dose of licorice and anise greets you when you spray it just ever so lightly. It’s not a shrinking violet, no, even though you can detect faint hints of violets in the scent. It’s green, subtly floral and almost herbal, but still the fragrance remains sweet overall. I would not call this a gourmand type of sweetness, despite the candied notes, because as the scent expands on the skin, you can smell the base of vetiver, anchoring the scent down, in a musky earthy way, laid over a layer of powdery floral notes (violet & iris combination, perhaps).

On a good day, Lolita Lempicka can last up to 8 hours on me, and it has a moderately strong sillage, making this quite a versatile scent, since you can easily transit into night time with this fragrance, while wearing it to work during the day, as long as you don’t over spray or something. The sillage drops as time goes along, it remains warm and sinks down to your skin level.

Despite the cute bottle, I wouldn’t really say it’s geared towards only young girls, older people, even guys, would smell pretty good with Lolita Lempicka, I believe. There are quite a few flankers in the Lolita Lempicka line, but I think this original one is still the queen.